Friday, August 18, 2006

DAY FIVE: BIAW - And Now, for Something Completely Different

I think some of us are struggling in our writing this week. I know I did yesterday. Every word I wrote felt like I was giving birth. Ok, ok, since I have experienced the agonizing miracle of giving birth, that's not quite accurate. But you know what I mean.

I want to share an article I wrote a few years ago that might remind you why you write. And you'll know this is from a few years ago when you read the line, "Grabbed a handful of chocolate." I don't get to do that anymore! ;-)

I Write, Therefore I Am

By Melissa Marsh

Tonight I sat down at the computer to do my daily (or sometimes nightly) freewriting session. I grabbed a handful of chocolate, watched my dog’s chest rise and fall in sleep (and wondered at the same time how he could possibly be comfortable sleeping on my shoe), and clacked away on the keyboard in between sips of cold water while I tried to shut out the bickering between my two kids. Pretty normal in this household (unless I am without chocolate, in which case, a tic develops in my cheek).

But this evening’s writing produced a wayward thought that struck me quite hard:

What would I do it if I didn’t write?

Writing has been embedded in my life since the sixth grade. Before then, I had dabbled with the notion of being a teacher or a lawyer. But once the writing bug hit me, I didn’t want to do anything else. I even wrote to my favorite authors, asking, “Must I go to college? I don’t need a four-year degree to write a novel!” Thankfully, they urged me to continue my education – all of it would be fodder for the writing mill.

I loved college. My undergraduate years were full of self-discovery – I became independent, responsible, and self-sufficient. I also developed friendships that I still cherish today. But there wasn’t a day that went by that I didn’t think about writing. Not a single day.

After I graduated, it didn’t matter what job I ended up at – I always knew it would be temporary. My goal was to someday become a published novelist and to earn my living as a writer.

Years later, I still have that goal. Sure, life happened in the meantime – college, dating, marriage, children, graduate school, buying a house, etc.

But always, underlying it all, is my compulsion to write. It is ingrained so completely within my soul that I cannot imagine not writing.

So what would I do if I didn’t write?

If I could completely eradicate writing from my brain, well, I wouldn’t be me. Who knows what path my life would have taken if God had not put this desire to write within me? He had His reasons and I’ve come to believe I just have to let Him lead the way.

Quite simply, I’m a writer. This is who I am. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Copyright 2004 by MMarsh

10 Comments:

Blogger Kelly said...

Great article! I can't imagine what I'd be if I weren't a writer. Other than very unhappy!

Word count today: 2,250
Total word count: 11,250
Words to goal: 3,750

4:16 AM  
Blogger Devon Ellington said...

I completely agree.

I AM a writer. Even with the 20+ years working in theatre and now television, first and foremost, I consider myself a writer, and I write almost every day.

I don't want to do anything else.

Today: having trouble settling down to the play. I'm preparing for my Geek Squad guy to come and fix my computer, and I'm trying to make sure the space is comfortable for him to work in. I can't seem to settle yet, but I'm hoping I can soon.

In addition to starting Act II of the play today, I need to continue work on the articles which are on paid deadline.

6:25 AM  
Blogger Devon Ellington said...

13 pages on the first scene of the second act, about a third of it, I think.

Glad I sat down and did it. I'd like to finish the scene, but it's turning out to be more complex than expected.

8:08 AM  
Blogger Jacqui D. said...

very nice article!

8:14 AM  
Blogger LoryKC said...

Love the article!
Unfortunately, 0 words so far today...but it's only 2pm!

12:03 PM  
Blogger Sue aka MsCreativity said...

Confession time - I haven't written anything today. I've spent far too long over at cataromance... I'm going to make up for it tomorrow.
Love your article btw.
Sue :-)

12:58 PM  
Blogger Melissa Marsh said...

1100 words so far. I may do some more this evening - we'll see.

2:42 PM  
Blogger Bella Tyler said...

Been a rough week...but I'm up to 1493 for today, so we are getting there :)

3:48 PM  
Blogger ~~Olivia said...

700 words for today and that was just for two hours. Finding time has been difficult.

Hopefully more tomorrow.

7:30 PM  
Blogger Karen Erickson said...

Great article! I didn't write much today, only about 500 words. Oh well...

11:06 PM  

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